Trina says “life has been dark” since her miscarriage and the loss of her mother and brother

Rapper Trina is just coming out of a difficult period of mourning. The 45-year-old was the first to seem on air to confer with her book, “The worst” and some sadness that I’m still working through.

Hall opened the show by reading an excerpt from the artist’s book, which discussed the miscarriage of her child with Lil Wayne earlier in her profession. They dated from 2005 to 2007 and were even engaged for a short while. She explained that she was initially unable to properly mourn the loss of her child attributable to the stigma related to becoming pregnant as a rapper and keeping busy with work.

“I cried on the road, I cried on the tour bus, I cried in the hotel, but I had to go on stage that night. I would have to get on a plane that morning and do everything I had to do,” she explained. “So it was something that was kind of swept under the rug.”

She continued: “I used to be so young and fair, I felt hurt. Inside I felt sad. I just [started] questioning the things I consider and why me. You know, I didn’t understand. Was there something I did flawed? Why? I blame myself quite a bit for this. ”

For Trina, the miscarriage was the prelude to many painful losses. In 2013, her brother, Wilbrent Bain Jr., was killed in a shooting; he was only 19 years old. During an appearance on Tamron, Hall talked about how her brother’s death pushed her right into a dark space.

“But losing my brother is where life turned dark for me. And to the world they see it as, you realize, comfortable and smiling and just keeping pushing. But for me, my life has been dark since 2013 until now. Since 2013, once I lost my brother, I felt simply disconnected from the world. I felt like I didn’t want my life to be here.

Trina then added how she was dealt one other blow when her mom passed away in 2019.

“I really stopped believing in everything I believe in life. Like I just felt like God. “What are you doing?”. Why is it me?” – she said with tears in her eyes. “I just began breaking down. I do not understand, how will you live without your mother?

“If my back was against the wall, my mom was at all times there. She was never there for me. When she wasn’t here, I just felt alone in the world,” she added.

The “Pull Over” rapper also lost her 17-year-old niece in a shooting in 2022. Although the loss was overwhelming, Trina experienced some glimmers of joy, similar to her recent wedding. Taylor tied the knot with her partner, Benjamin Leon Kearse Jr., also generally known as Swurv, on May 22 in Miramar, Florida.